Friday, February 12, 2010

pandanon

Due to the recent happenings of my life, my cousins/housemate decided to have an escapade in an island between Bohol and Cebu, Pandanon.

Let me tell how all things started..

I have this thing called "time conflict" with my boyfriend for the reason being that, well, maybe just maybe his still not that just into me, but I accept it. All I need is just a little of his precious and busy time to come and visit me or spend time with me during my restdays. Thursday last week, we agreed to meet up at my place after he takes off from school. I was waiting like hell back at my place but no sign of him. 11 pm thursday night, Im totally pissed that not even a text message came through. Could it be that the network is busy? COuld it be that he doesnt have load anymore? all the reasons I could think of I did, so first I tried to gave him load, 30 past the hour of 11, still no text came in. Im a bit paranoid, well , im really paranoid, so I was thinkin that could it be that my phone is not functioning well?, so as a technical guy, I tried what most call center people would do, "powercycle", but still no text came in. And now im really really pissed off. I tried calling him which is by the way I hate but I did it. I tried calling him like a gazillion times but to no avail, no one is picking up on the other line. Could it be that he is sleeping now and his mobile phone is in silent mode? well, all the unendless posibilities of the "could it be" phrase that I could think off has long been played over and over again in my twisted mind. My cousins were out drinking that time so I decided to join them and just end the night with some guy that I'm gonna meet in a bar. I could'nt explain what I was feeling that time. I was mad at him but Im pissed of myself for letting him do that to me.

I was in a bar with my cousins , dacing along the beat of the music. Dance a little and flirt more, well in my case thats what I did. 130 AM and still no text came in. I was tipsy and Im in the mood for casual sex just to forget the pain I'm feeling inside but my cousins stopped me from getting into somebodys pants that night. They were like telling me to respect myself and blah blah blah ,I cant seem to remember a word they say and we were in that instance that I decided to take a look at my phone and bam!!!! a texy finally came through and guess what , It was from him. It was a very long explaination as to why he came home late. The reason that he was trying to make me believe that in the end , I did unfortunately was that they had a fight with his mom and stepdad adn he did had a bruise on his face and lips. I found myself riding a cab, shouting at him over the phone and telling him to go out of his house ad that we need to talk. And yes we did both poured our hearts out as to why I'm not trusting him as to him just enjoying the company of his friends talking and seeking advices to what just happend to him. I was just crying and listening and after all the explaination, I asked him just one question which he was really sure of the answer, I asked him if he is still intrested of continuing the relationship and with all night he said yes. He said yes, he hugged me, said sorry and cried. Well , Im just a simple guy whos just trying to seek attention and true love so what the hell, I said okay. And I said to myslef, well, here we go again. :)

We parted ways around 5AM in the morning promised each other that well never gonna quarrel again, but I was wrong :(.

We talked about having dinner after he comes out of school at around 920 PM at my place. I woke up 10PM friday night and to my despair, no text came in as usual. I tried to understand the situation and just waited again and arounf 11PM he texted me saying that he cant make it since they would have a review early in the morning and so I did try to huggle a bit of his time asking him if its fine to just come over at my place and just hang out for a bit and then he can go home. I was a bit persistent and a bit mad but to no avail, he didnt came over. We were again fighting on the phone. While I'm busy holding the phone on one hand, the other was holding the bottle of tequilla and sipping it sentence after sentence. I was crying and really mad that time that I promised myself that he was just right there, I would surely break his neck. After an hour on the phone, we decided to end the relationship and that came from me..the decision made my head spin and after saying that, I cant bear what he would say so I threw the phone away and I just heared a smashing sound and bye bye phone, It hit the ground and it was into pieces. The rest of my what happened that night was just relayed by my cousins the next day. Well, it will be then another story.

Hmm, I'm a bit tired now, so I gotta tell the main story about what happend in our pandanon escapade next time. I have to talk to him now since his pretending to be busy again. Guys will always be guys, well I'm a guy technically and why I dont do this things, questions again seem to grow and again paranoia is knocking at my door. Till nerxt time guys, Im not in the mood already :(

Monday, February 1, 2010

...off to lunch

..Here I am again waiting...33 minuites more and I'm off for lunch at 4:45 o'clock in the morning. Can u imagine that? lunch at 4:45 AM..haha, that is because I work in a Business Process Outsourcing company which is commonly termed as Call Center and my shift today starts at 1230 past midnight and I'll be out around 930 AM. Good thing I have a coaching at 9AM so I'll stop taking calls that time. I'm almost past half of my shift and Im so eager about it. I start to question myself, "where is this coming from?", " why is my thingking like this?" and the last question and a statement as well is .." i love my job? of do i love my job?...my friend banot was writing about the normal day at work and that you dont have the choice but to work all your life. Even if you resign right now from your current work, you will still have to apply and work again for another company.