pandanon

Due to the recent happenings of my life, my cousins/housemate decided to have an escapade in an island between Bohol and Cebu, Pandanon.

Let me tell how all things started..

I have this thing called "time conflict" with my boyfriend for the reason being that, well, maybe just maybe his still not that just into me, but I accept it. All I need is just a little of his precious and busy time to come and visit me or spend time with me during my restdays. Thursday last week, we agreed to meet up at my place after he takes off from school. I was waiting like hell back at my place but no sign of him. 11 pm thursday night, Im totally pissed that not even a text message came through. Could it be that the network is busy? COuld it be that he doesnt have load anymore? all the reasons I could think of I did, so first I tried to gave him load, 30 past the hour of 11, still no text came in. Im a bit paranoid, well , im really paranoid, so I was thinkin that could it be that my phone is not functioning well?, so as a technical guy, I tried what most call center people would do, "powercycle", but still no text came in. And now im really really pissed off. I tried calling him which is by the way I hate but I did it. I tried calling him like a gazillion times but to no avail, no one is picking up on the other line. Could it be that he is sleeping now and his mobile phone is in silent mode? well, all the unendless posibilities of the "could it be" phrase that I could think off has long been played over and over again in my twisted mind. My cousins were out drinking that time so I decided to join them and just end the night with some guy that I'm gonna meet in a bar. I could'nt explain what I was feeling that time. I was mad at him but Im pissed of myself for letting him do that to me.

I was in a bar with my cousins , dacing along the beat of the music. Dance a little and flirt more, well in my case thats what I did. 130 AM and still no text came in. I was tipsy and Im in the mood for casual sex just to forget the pain I'm feeling inside but my cousins stopped me from getting into somebodys pants that night. They were like telling me to respect myself and blah blah blah ,I cant seem to remember a word they say and we were in that instance that I decided to take a look at my phone and bam!!!! a texy finally came through and guess what , It was from him. It was a very long explaination as to why he came home late. The reason that he was trying to make me believe that in the end , I did unfortunately was that they had a fight with his mom and stepdad adn he did had a bruise on his face and lips. I found myself riding a cab, shouting at him over the phone and telling him to go out of his house ad that we need to talk. And yes we did both poured our hearts out as to why I'm not trusting him as to him just enjoying the company of his friends talking and seeking advices to what just happend to him. I was just crying and listening and after all the explaination, I asked him just one question which he was really sure of the answer, I asked him if he is still intrested of continuing the relationship and with all night he said yes. He said yes, he hugged me, said sorry and cried. Well , Im just a simple guy whos just trying to seek attention and true love so what the hell, I said okay. And I said to myslef, well, here we go again. :)

We parted ways around 5AM in the morning promised each other that well never gonna quarrel again, but I was wrong :(.

We talked about having dinner after he comes out of school at around 920 PM at my place. I woke up 10PM friday night and to my despair, no text came in as usual. I tried to understand the situation and just waited again and arounf 11PM he texted me saying that he cant make it since they would have a review early in the morning and so I did try to huggle a bit of his time asking him if its fine to just come over at my place and just hang out for a bit and then he can go home. I was a bit persistent and a bit mad but to no avail, he didnt came over. We were again fighting on the phone. While I'm busy holding the phone on one hand, the other was holding the bottle of tequilla and sipping it sentence after sentence. I was crying and really mad that time that I promised myself that he was just right there, I would surely break his neck. After an hour on the phone, we decided to end the relationship and that came from me..the decision made my head spin and after saying that, I cant bear what he would say so I threw the phone away and I just heared a smashing sound and bye bye phone, It hit the ground and it was into pieces. The rest of my what happened that night was just relayed by my cousins the next day. Well, it will be then another story.

Hmm, I'm a bit tired now, so I gotta tell the main story about what happend in our pandanon escapade next time. I have to talk to him now since his pretending to be busy again. Guys will always be guys, well I'm a guy technically and why I dont do this things, questions again seem to grow and again paranoia is knocking at my door. Till nerxt time guys, Im not in the mood already :(

...off to lunch

..Here I am again waiting...33 minuites more and I'm off for lunch at 4:45 o'clock in the morning. Can u imagine that? lunch at 4:45 AM..haha, that is because I work in a Business Process Outsourcing company which is commonly termed as Call Center and my shift today starts at 1230 past midnight and I'll be out around 930 AM. Good thing I have a coaching at 9AM so I'll stop taking calls that time. I'm almost past half of my shift and Im so eager about it. I start to question myself, "where is this coming from?", " why is my thingking like this?" and the last question and a statement as well is .." i love my job? of do i love my job?...my friend banot was writing about the normal day at work and that you dont have the choice but to work all your life. Even if you resign right now from your current work, you will still have to apply and work again for another company.

the chat box is available...

now we can all be here and chat our hearts out. Its not that real time though and it cant be accessed by all stations but its better than nothing. Lets enjoy this guys..hehe

planning on starting the year right..

how do you define right? I was planning to start the year with no complications but it turned out to the other way around. I was about to end the first month of the year 2010 with a lot of people involved in my twisted life..it started the 9th of January. I was all so confident that I'm just gonna play with some guy and no serious commitments but this time what happened was he was the first one to came up to me and told me that he liked me. I was and will always be a vulnerable person when it comes to love and attention. It was a very frightening day for me to see his face like a puppy , making funny faces looking at me and asking me if "are we on already?"..those are the exact words that came out of his mouth..amidst the loud noises and the smoke in the room that time, those words are but like thunder that perpetrated through my ears then trough my brain and pierced through my heart..and i said "YES"...would this be wise for me to do?

..a lot of things have happened after the 9th of January that you would'nt believe it happening, I , for once , could not believe myslef...

What i'm talking about is that i made a lot of sexual affairs apart from my new found boyfriend. Aside from that up til now and counting , nothing has happened yet between me and my lover..a lot of revalations in just a little amount of time..

the recent happenings...

January 3, 2010
2:45 PM
Sunday

Here I am just got back from Liloan with my very business minded friend tin2x, wheew..., there were a lot of 'talaba' that we bought for her delivery to TONGs, one of the nice restaurants here in cebu. It was fun yet it the sun was not so very cooperative, twas really bright and sunny and glairy, feels like in the beach.

Well, last night was fun, it was girls night with Rachel, Tin2x and the bitter
Anna...haha.just watching tagalog movies, it was really amazing how we can relate to the movie, specially if its a love story, we chitchat at the same time, takenote, with different
topics, but we still get to follow the movie and still make manage to make some cooments.

ring ring...ring ring...

Anna answered and the 5 mins after me and christine wasleft hanging, watching how the movie " And I Love you so" ended, hmmm we then decided to have a massage..

My new year was not so great after all, I celebrated new year taking calls with an irate customer asking me why her bill was $900..haha, simply because she was not able to pay her 3 months bill.oh well, I came home around 3AM new year dawn, it was really raining, people were already asleep in my place. It was really pouring hard and people lost the energy to party..haha..

Schedule was so not into my favor, our team was scheduled to go back 7am that day, it was so painful to bear but nothing much I can do. I just enjoyed the five hour break then got back to the office and took calls up til 10AM. Well, thats call center life.

.Here I am, in the cubicle waiting for my therapist to come in. Just wearing briefs and very much excited to for the touch of another man. I usually do this every payday cause it rejuvenates my mental and physical aspect. after 45 mins, I was in heaven in the hands of my therapist as he was in mine. Thats life. thats life.

After then liloan trip, me and rachel were craving for lechon and so we had it. Half kilo of

lechon was just enough for both of us. haha..It was really yummy and crunchy since we were the first one to break it. Just like a 17 year old guy, yummy and crunchy. haha..Im feeling the dreaded syndrome every after we eat and I almost dozed but rachel suggested to watch korean movie and so we did, it was about "CHEATERS", I hate cheaters but thats really the title of the movie, 6 persons played the role of being cheaters to each others lives, it was sexy and exciting and at the endpoint of the movie, they all meet at one scene and discovered what really happened. It's a nice movie, I bet all of us can relate to it.

haha..

But i forgot to tell you guys what happend to me at the last day of 2009, now this is exciting....

December 30, 2009 at 8pm, my phone rang and it was time for me to wake up and get ready for work. Much that I wanted to drag myself up to the bed to the shower but I cant, i'm feeling so cold and chilly. my world was spinning round and so I called my team lead and he approved that I should go have a rest to be sure that I can go to the shift the next day. And so I was took meds and after 5 seconds upon closing my eyes, Allan, my neighbor was rumbling the door and wants to have a drink. He was with Ayong, another neighbor who , well , you know, we have something naughty going on. Allan knew that I would say yes to his offer of drinking session if he was with Ayong so, there, we were drinking with my cousin Rachel and another friend Aiker.

After an hour, Ayong was so drunk that he took off without us knowing and then Allan went after a few mnutes after. Rachel decided to sleep as well since she was drunk, so only me and Aiker was left drinking with 4 more bottles of beer. Relax guys, its not Aiker. haha..

so I told him that maybe we should invite some people since we cant finish the 4 bottles with just the two of us so he texted this cute guy that I crave so much. His name is Dave. He just lives 10 mins away from us so Dave arrived around 2 AM. It was the last bottle of beer and I felt hunger and we decided to eat in a tapsilogan nearby. When we were going towards home, Aiker decided to take a dump first so only me and Dave went back in the house, he was really drunk that time since before he came to our session, he was drinking as well with his friends. And so it was, we were alone in the living room drinking the last bottle of beer. Dave took of his shirt since he was so sweaty, and so it was again, I was having a gut feeling that somethings gonna happen. He was looking at me with a smirk on his face and
he was trying to seduce me but he was not saying anything. I was just pretending that everything was just okay. But my blood was rushing through my whole body. After 20 minutes of just being like that, I decided to talk and asked him if he wants a BJ. i thought he'd be mad at me or something but what he did was to smile and pretend that he was dozing off and after two minutes, he was as if really asleep. i took itas a sign and began to kiss his neck, then his nipples and all you can hear was heavy breathing and a bit of ahhh, so I continued until i reached his abs, it was so toned and smooth. I so love it. As i was doing this, I was massaging his very hard cock. His moans are getting louder till I opened his shorts and removed his briefs.My left hand was tickling his niples while im sucking him and the other hand was massaging his rectum. The moans is really getting louder so I decided to take him to my room. I took my clothes off as well and started kissing him, Dave
was such a good kisser at his age, he was only 20. And so he requested that I should
continue doing what I was doing to him earlier since he liked it so much, this time, I rimmed him and I got a very good reaction from him. He shouted my name saying "yawa ka, lami kaayo ka lubton"..in english, " shit! i wana fuck u" and so I put lotion over his cock and then sat on it, i started humping at him and all you could hear was moans and sighs...ahhhhhhh...ron...shit....ahhhh...in the middle of it, he was telling me that I was the first guy who was able to do that to him and that I was the first that he fucked and he was like in a trance in saying this word" lami man diay japun ang lobot" ahaha...so I just continued humping and after a couple of minutes, he came inside me...ahhhhhhhh shit...and he requested for a second round and so it happened, he said he will be the one to drive, he was still in heat...i can tell, so he started kissing me then through my neck, my nipples,
then put lotion again and this time and he was the one driving, he told me to spread my legs and he started pumping me and it felt sooo good....ahhhhhh,,,shit...fuck....it was really damn good, dave fucks like a pro. It was then second round so it took him a longer time before he came , he then asked me if I wanted to release as well, I said yes and he started masturbating mine while he was fucking me..i can tell that his already near climax since he stopped masturbating me, told me to continue it since he is already near...ahhhh....ohhhhh...fuck ron...shit...i continued masturbating and I came first and due to the effect on him, due to the contractions made by my ejaculations, he came a few seconds after..ahhhhhhhhhh......shitttt...he then came inside me again...he kissed me and said we should do this again.He told that he never thought that fucking another guy is fun, I thanked him since I was the first to do it to him and he thanked me as well for giving him such an awesome experience before the year ended..

Dave told me that he might consider having a boyfriend and he was pertaining to me, i thanked him for it but I told him that Im starting the year with no complications, flirting will do. he laughed and looked at me and asked me again, " well, can we do this, at least?",well i told him that what happened will fall under flirting category so it will, he laughed again and bit goodbye since the sun is almost up.

Well, those are the happenings of my life in the first three days of the year..hehe
hoping to have more exciting stories to tell to my avid readers, well for now I still dont,

just a few friends but Im sure, this site will be famous..haha...

These are true stories of my life and hoping it will be exciting for the next months to

come!

I'll keep you posted guys!

BUCKET LIST 2010

1. NO relationships, flirting will do.
2. Go back to Church activities .
3. Enroll in Hip-hop dance class.
4. I should be able to visit at least 2 Asian countries.
5. Minimize drinking, just minimize..hehe
6. Be able to visit all the main cities and tourist destinations of the country. weee
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Christmas Countdown, preparing my self for the holiday and for the coming new year

11:01 PM, almost midnight and its already December 24. Its almost Christmas.
Im here in the office and taking in calls, a lot of calls right now.

Most of the people right now are preparing for the Noche Buena and for what they gonna wear during the mass and the never ending parties they will be attending, as for me, well yeah,am part of that too but mostly am preparing myself for the coming year, for me to face the new year with the courage of having to be on my own without needing someone's affection.

In the new year to come and gonna make myself busy and I already have a long long list of things to do , my friends call it my "bucket list 2010"....