Saturday, October 30, 2010
...a note from the heart
..you may not be his first, his last, or his only. He loved before, he may love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He's not perrfect, you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if he can make you laugh, cause you to think twice and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you can break; his heart. So don't hurt him, don't change him, don't analyze and don't expect more that he can give. Smile when he makes you happy. Let him know when he makes you mad and miss him when he's not there.....pak! veyga ra..hehe..
.,...him
i ws nt aware dt he cAme only 2 luv me 4awyl..i ws aiming 2b w/ hm 4evr bt he's n0t wiLin 2wrk 8 ol out..wyl i ws busy planng 4 us, he ws bz planng hs lyf w/ an0thr gurl.. it hurts t0o much bt ol i cn do s watch hm walk away..n dts d end of 8. dr g0es my 4evr..dr g0s my lyf i knw he's g0ne, bt m stl hurtng & i feel so br0ken,8s tru dt wen u felt luv & lost it,8s hardr evrytym u try 2 mov on, u cnt slip & do d thngs u lyk 2 do,u alwys wnt 2 stay seatd lukng bck 2 dos tyms u felt lyk ur d hapiest prson...
......oftntyms,u end up goin crazy,u cnt xplain wats hapenin 2 u,u cnt help bt thnk of d prson u luv evryday,evrynyt, & u jst cnt get ovr,
wd dis,gos 1 phrase,
"movin on" s nvr easy,8 nvr was & it wil nvr b.
......oftntyms,u end up goin crazy,u cnt xplain wats hapenin 2 u,u cnt help bt thnk of d prson u luv evryday,evrynyt, & u jst cnt get ovr,
wd dis,gos 1 phrase,
"movin on" s nvr easy,8 nvr was & it wil nvr b.
..my ken..part 2
..well here I am continuing what i had started..my life right now is all on a whirlwind situation with my ken...
i thought that we will be happy since the girl broke up with him on the day that we will be going to moalboal since , hmmm, inthe first place i kinda figured it out that saturday is there dating time so i kinda pulled out some strings that we willhave the outing saturday..,my plan did worked out and there...he was a bit teary eyed in the van , squeezing my hand and whispering..." please dont leave me...she left me , i know im a bit selfish, but please dont leave me" and i just kissed him...we did had a good time in our weekend getaway and i thought that it will really last. However i thought wrong since the girl was really that persistent to have him back. A call here and there, sms,,,ughhh..i hate it. I want toi kill her, but my ken promised not to reply to any of her messages and dont even bother answering the call... and so i stupidly did what he said. But somehow i have the is gut feeling that when he gets home, he will really talk to the girl and I was right. I gave him a week off..just a couple of days ago, I found out from the girl herself that they got back together..it was so tragic and the world fell upon me, but madness , envy and fury cuddled my mind and I was about to kill him. at first he didnt confided , but for the evidence that I have had laid on him, he was cornered, He reasoned out that because of me promising him something that I was not able to gave him, another reason which i think he can think off that time since he was caught off guard was that he would get back at the girl for hurting him...which I thought very illogical since what the girl just did was to break up with him and thats just it, he's making it more complicated for me to think that his real reason was that, to get back at her...but i didnt bought it. He told me that he loved me with a bit of tears in his eyes but still i cant seem to believe anymore, even the fact that he did invited me to the wake of his grandfather with all the realtives knowing that I am the gay lover, but it still doesnt counfnt.Maybe Im just too complicated to love. We were supposed to meet a couple of hours ago but his phone was off, I tried calling his cousin and was told that he was not inthe wake the whole night and thathe came around 9 oclock in the morning which tells me that he was with that bitch since the phone was off the whole time friday evening..oh well, its his loss,not me......
these and all are only what I feel for now and are subject to change depending onthe expaination and depending on how I would take it..till the next continuation of my very exciting adventure with my ken..when all i got is but heartache and trouble...sad face...
i thought that we will be happy since the girl broke up with him on the day that we will be going to moalboal since , hmmm, inthe first place i kinda figured it out that saturday is there dating time so i kinda pulled out some strings that we willhave the outing saturday..,my plan did worked out and there...he was a bit teary eyed in the van , squeezing my hand and whispering..." please dont leave me...she left me , i know im a bit selfish, but please dont leave me" and i just kissed him...we did had a good time in our weekend getaway and i thought that it will really last. However i thought wrong since the girl was really that persistent to have him back. A call here and there, sms,,,ughhh..i hate it. I want toi kill her, but my ken promised not to reply to any of her messages and dont even bother answering the call... and so i stupidly did what he said. But somehow i have the is gut feeling that when he gets home, he will really talk to the girl and I was right. I gave him a week off..just a couple of days ago, I found out from the girl herself that they got back together..it was so tragic and the world fell upon me, but madness , envy and fury cuddled my mind and I was about to kill him. at first he didnt confided , but for the evidence that I have had laid on him, he was cornered, He reasoned out that because of me promising him something that I was not able to gave him, another reason which i think he can think off that time since he was caught off guard was that he would get back at the girl for hurting him...which I thought very illogical since what the girl just did was to break up with him and thats just it, he's making it more complicated for me to think that his real reason was that, to get back at her...but i didnt bought it. He told me that he loved me with a bit of tears in his eyes but still i cant seem to believe anymore, even the fact that he did invited me to the wake of his grandfather with all the realtives knowing that I am the gay lover, but it still doesnt counfnt.Maybe Im just too complicated to love. We were supposed to meet a couple of hours ago but his phone was off, I tried calling his cousin and was told that he was not inthe wake the whole night and thathe came around 9 oclock in the morning which tells me that he was with that bitch since the phone was off the whole time friday evening..oh well, its his loss,not me......
these and all are only what I feel for now and are subject to change depending onthe expaination and depending on how I would take it..till the next continuation of my very exciting adventure with my ken..when all i got is but heartache and trouble...sad face...
...my ken
..8s rily amazing hw d game of lyf called fate plays a very big role n our existence...im amazed at hw 2 pipol wd 2 difrnt worlds mit up ang feels d chemistry frm wid n. . , and then d story begins...
my story starts wid a simple plot of a guy mits guy scenario n a plain setting whch led to getting to know and jamin sesions wid a bit of sexual scenes...but d story never ends there....
...as we go along wd geting to knw we came acros dis thng called love whch led to a lot of complications n my lyf ryt nw...8 was my first tym of being d 3rd party unknowingly, n hav i not acted on it ryt away,i wouldnt knw, tnx to facebook...
...but d plot thickens as i unravel d mystery of his personality whch led me to a decision of parting ways and ending it all up...but i never expected.'
.,i never expectd that he wud cling on to me like that, and that his feelings 4 me wer true.,he would not let me go, and i couldnt either...now im hanging by a thread frm the decision that ive made.,should i be hapy dat he wants me bt stil cnt let go of d other girl or shud i juz be contentd....
..,the story stops frm hir for d meantym....all i knw is ive given him my heart and he has given his, tho nt wholeheartdly,bt dats fine, i hav loved him wid all my mind,heart and soul,..and to me that has always been enough..
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my story starts wid a simple plot of a guy mits guy scenario n a plain setting whch led to getting to know and jamin sesions wid a bit of sexual scenes...but d story never ends there....
...as we go along wd geting to knw we came acros dis thng called love whch led to a lot of complications n my lyf ryt nw...8 was my first tym of being d 3rd party unknowingly, n hav i not acted on it ryt away,i wouldnt knw, tnx to facebook...
...but d plot thickens as i unravel d mystery of his personality whch led me to a decision of parting ways and ending it all up...but i never expected.'
.,i never expectd that he wud cling on to me like that, and that his feelings 4 me wer true.,he would not let me go, and i couldnt either...now im hanging by a thread frm the decision that ive made.,should i be hapy dat he wants me bt stil cnt let go of d other girl or shud i juz be contentd....
..,the story stops frm hir for d meantym....all i knw is ive given him my heart and he has given his, tho nt wholeheartdly,bt dats fine, i hav loved him wid all my mind,heart and soul,..and to me that has always been enough..
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...quotations
There comes a point in your life when you realize:
Who matters,Who never did,Who won't anymore...
And who always will.
So, don't worry about people from your past,
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
Who matters,Who never did,Who won't anymore...
And who always will.
So, don't worry about people from your past,
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
...all bout him
the nex postings that im gonna post are those from my facebook account , you know sometimes help me remember how emotional I am. enjoy reading....
Sunday, June 20, 2010
finishing off the rest of the year...
..I have planned to start the year with no complications but the other way happened. There was a lot in it that I thought I would not see another day. But thanks to my friends that somehow believed in me that I managed to survive. And now I'm planning to finish the year with no complications at all. I have a guy right now and I dont know what our score is but I'll just keep it simple and just stick to him till the year ends. I hope I can end the year with him. His young and is still not sure with his emotions but I can tell, I can surely tell that he somehow feels something for me. His not just ready yet to what other people might say. Til next time. ";)
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